Mixed Emotions!

[denirest]

I finally got to visit my husband after a year and got to spend 11 wonderful days with him. But I go a little crazy on the last day.. everytime i visit him. I get so upset that my visit is coming to an end and get so emotional and end up arguing with him - which i know makes no sense. I was so excited to see him and loved every second we spent together! I felt so blessed that my job booked us a hotel for our anniversary - it was such a great experience. But like usual i ruin the last moments by getting so emotional and basically crying from the night before until i leave. Thank God my husband always expects it, wishes it doesn't happen, but expects it and deals with it. I just hate what this process is doing to me... literally making me lose my mind!

I feel like i get worse for a couple weeks after seeing him, but it is because i miss him so much and realize how great he is when i see him and how much he takes care of me. And to realize I have to come back to the USA to do EVERYTHING all on my own again and deal with the everyday stress of bills, home responsibilities.. plus issues with my kids. I just want him back to help me again. And i freak out every time instead of just accepting that this is where we are at this point of time and to be positive and enjoy our final moments together before my departure from Colombia. Sleeping alone last night was horrible!!!

I just want him home now!

[Guedez]

This is your year and he will be home! Processing times are speeding up and he could be home soon!

[leilei]

denirest, i know how you feel... i do the same thing when i visit my hubby in mexico... i love that time together, but then at the end of the trip i feel so ANGRY that i have to go through all of this... most of the time, i take it out on my hubby because i don't know who else to blame... it's a normal reaction. i just have to tell myself that God has a plan and the BEST way isn't always the EASIEST way!

[ROY AND RUTH]

hello and you are definately not alone, i visit my fiance in colombia three or four times per year and it never fails that tension arrises as departure time nears, its simply because we do not know what really lies ahead in our future, we like you , are relying on the decisions of people that in know way can understand the heart-felt grief of being seperated in such a manner and for such a long time.
but dont worry, its sites like this that give us support when it seems all is going against us, but in reallity....every passing day brings us closer to being finally together , forever.

be strong and we will all get what we seek, ROY AND RUTH

[bvallejo]

Oh nothing I can say except hang in there. It is terrible to have to leave, but that is great that you had a wonderful time and this is "the" year. Hopefully he will be home soon and at least you know the drill and are able to deal with it.

[ALONSO]

Those emotions are normal. The anger, the sadness, the excitement, the nervousness all of them are normal and frustrating at the same time. We have been in your shoes and know exactly how you feel. The first day getting there you have butterflies in your stomach and tears of joy! When you leave there are tears if sadness and anger!! Your day will come. Things are moving faster and we will be here praying for you and rooting you on!!

[ivetcy]

I perfectly understand you!!! The weeks before the trip, I am so excited and happy because I'm going to see my hubby but when it is almost time to come back here I start crying too. It is so sad to come back to an empty home. I totally understand how you feel but try to live one day at the time, that is what I do and I try not to think how many more months I have until my husband is back. Hopefully time will go fast and Panama is going to decrease the waiting time!

[latinlaw0315]

I definitely know how you feel.....I would always put a brave face for my husband and I would enjoy every moment i was with him, but the minute i got on that plane i would start balling like a little kid.....Lucky for you your husband understands this situation is hard for you but you have to hang in there! It will be over soon and you will be together.....draw strength from each other and hope and pray! We are all here for you!!!

[dway35]

Hi, Denirest

We know how you feeling right now is normal just vent away when i left my husband left in 05/08 it was harder especially because my son was about 9yrs old and everytime we left they both end up crying so my son when to Ecuador twice and IT GOT A Point I stop taking my son it was to emotionally draining me and my husband.

Hang in there we know this year we all get approved.

DAISY

[denirest]

I seriously started to think I was going crazy... I make myself sick and just want to spend every second with him.. because i get so scared and don't know when i am going to be able to see him again. It is nice to know I am not the only one with these crazy moments. He thinks I am.