Rawr
11-02-2007, 11:13 PM
I sometimes feel like I have no right to complain about my life, it has been pretty sheltered since I was a little kid in Mexico, but I believe that every person's suffering is valid, no matter what the hands of fate dealt us.
We were really poor even for Mexicans, but we weren't so poor that we were picking up good tomatoes out of the trash piles in the mercado [that's similar to a farmer's market].
My dream when I was little was to go to the University, I supposed I was going to get married too, and I dreamt with my Prince Charming like every little girl does, but my life as a kid was a sad one filled with fantasies and the ocassional trip in school or with mom to the big grocery stores.
That was enough for me back then, but I had no idea what the world was.
My dad left when I was around 7-8 yrs old, from then on my only dream was to see him again.
When I really think about it we were ignorant, but not because we chose to be, but because our government didn't let anything slip, I used to hate the USA and I didn't even really know why, I only knew it was the thing to do because everyone else did.
When I came here my world expanded, I did my best in HS because my parents told me it was my only salvation without documents and they apologized over and over for bringing us here, but we had nothing back in Mexico and they wanted the best for us.
Now I am engaged, I love my fiancé very much...and I wish the world wasn't so xenophobic, but it is, and I have been so depressed so many times I have come close to wishing for my death.
I'm not the type of person to stay uneducated, I believe that even if it seems like a waste for now people should go to school, it is the only way you will have to defend yourself in the world.
I do not believe in borders, we do not own this world, we simply inhabit it, and I do wish for a world where there are no barriers and our worth isn't measured by how we look.
I will do what is within my power to make that possible.
We were really poor even for Mexicans, but we weren't so poor that we were picking up good tomatoes out of the trash piles in the mercado [that's similar to a farmer's market].
My dream when I was little was to go to the University, I supposed I was going to get married too, and I dreamt with my Prince Charming like every little girl does, but my life as a kid was a sad one filled with fantasies and the ocassional trip in school or with mom to the big grocery stores.
That was enough for me back then, but I had no idea what the world was.
My dad left when I was around 7-8 yrs old, from then on my only dream was to see him again.
When I really think about it we were ignorant, but not because we chose to be, but because our government didn't let anything slip, I used to hate the USA and I didn't even really know why, I only knew it was the thing to do because everyone else did.
When I came here my world expanded, I did my best in HS because my parents told me it was my only salvation without documents and they apologized over and over for bringing us here, but we had nothing back in Mexico and they wanted the best for us.
Now I am engaged, I love my fiancé very much...and I wish the world wasn't so xenophobic, but it is, and I have been so depressed so many times I have come close to wishing for my death.
I'm not the type of person to stay uneducated, I believe that even if it seems like a waste for now people should go to school, it is the only way you will have to defend yourself in the world.
I do not believe in borders, we do not own this world, we simply inhabit it, and I do wish for a world where there are no barriers and our worth isn't measured by how we look.
I will do what is within my power to make that possible.