Elmoticky
09-27-2007, 05:22 PM
What started for me several days ago as a total collapse of
sensible reasoning when I made an unfactual comment to
a thread written by Roxy at the Soap Box titled "Going
Crazy" leads me to pull the trigger on this short thread.
That comment and ensuing responses from some members
here at the forum caused me to have an uncomfortable and
confusing reaction to that unfactual comment. I decided to
set the record striaght as to under what mentality I was in
when I made it to Roxy.
I will not rehash that mentality here at this time. If you wish, you may read the thread, if you havn`t already, at
the Soap Box titled "Had a terrible day...and a horrific night". There, I wrote a rather lenghty thread explaining
my main reason for making such a comment, when it has
turned out, that I should not have done so.
I was astonished make no mistake about it, due to the
many responses that you people submitted replying to
my plea for understanding. I read each and everyone of
your comments. Some of you praised me as one would a
great writer, and some screamed "more stories,more stories" and I waited for the tooting of horns and balloons
which I did not hear actually.
I responded to all of you with a short comment of Thanks
right under the last response listed this morning. I then
logged-off and went to another of my favorites sites to see
what happened in the world while I slept.
As I sat there staring at my monitor, something just did
not seem right after reading all of your praises about the
thread that I posted yesterday. I sat in a mode that I can
describe as a flat-out frozen trance. The center of my brow
felt cold when I finally realized what it is that continues to
bother me despite all of your assurances that things are
really honkie-dorrie with me here at the forum, as far as
you are concerned. I just cannot in good conscience accept
that. I have decided that I cannot continue to be here for
this reason. And for this reason alone:
You see, when I joined this site I did so with a great and
tremendous sense of wishing and wanting to be of help to
someone, anyone who needed help. I actually tip-toed into
the site and registered and joined. You will not find any
useful information released under my personal profile that
you may use as a clue to know who I am or what stand for.
I think this criteria of the site is perfect. Each person reserves his/her right to keep personal info private, the way
it should be.
Now here is the reason that I mention as invoked to decide
to leave the form.
I laud the site`s criteria of personal security. So for this
very reason I do not know who Roxy is. And that is good.
What transpired in the course of my trying to be of help
to her, at least in terms of her worries, actually developed
into a disaster, not only in obviously amplifying her worries
but stoking to further her confusion with respect to her
husband`s situation in Mexico.
Please note if you stumbled into my thread and read it. I
kinda begged Roxy to understand and forgive my mistake
of commenting to her thread at the Soap Box when I
actually had no buisness or knowledge of what I wrote. I
even requested a response from her in the thread, and that
was after I sent her a personal message earlier in the day.
As of today, I have no message from her.
This clash of hurt feelings is not what I had in mind when I
came here. This thing is absolutely not about me. I do not
need praises and toots and horn or balloons for my words.
The only one that can soothe and make things right for
me to continue writing here is her. And by her I mean Roxy.
It even entered my mind, like a flicker of hope, that perhaps she is in Mexico looking out for her man and she
does not know what is going on with me here. Maybe that
is the reason that all is silent over at her end. But that does
not help either.
So I am now asking all you good folks out there, HELP!
If you communicate with Roxy, please advise her that I
need her assurance that all is well with her, and that I
would appreciate if she sent me a PM in which she stated
her take in the matter.
It will be hard for me, make no mistake, to leave this site.
I will not feel comfortable at all making comments to folks
who need some sort of comfort in their quest for justice here in this country. So if I cannot in good spirit make a
simple comment hoping to assist someone without fear of
a repeat, what is the sense of making the comment in the
first place? Yeah, sure, we all make mistakes. But if you
are the beneficiary of someone`s error, and you do not
clear the air with the one who might have aggrieved you
by such mistake, that person is clearly diluted and further
made to withdraw within himself. And that is the case with
me at this moment. I just cannot in good faith continue
here.
All because of this thing at the Soap Box.
Over and out.
Elmoticky
sensible reasoning when I made an unfactual comment to
a thread written by Roxy at the Soap Box titled "Going
Crazy" leads me to pull the trigger on this short thread.
That comment and ensuing responses from some members
here at the forum caused me to have an uncomfortable and
confusing reaction to that unfactual comment. I decided to
set the record striaght as to under what mentality I was in
when I made it to Roxy.
I will not rehash that mentality here at this time. If you wish, you may read the thread, if you havn`t already, at
the Soap Box titled "Had a terrible day...and a horrific night". There, I wrote a rather lenghty thread explaining
my main reason for making such a comment, when it has
turned out, that I should not have done so.
I was astonished make no mistake about it, due to the
many responses that you people submitted replying to
my plea for understanding. I read each and everyone of
your comments. Some of you praised me as one would a
great writer, and some screamed "more stories,more stories" and I waited for the tooting of horns and balloons
which I did not hear actually.
I responded to all of you with a short comment of Thanks
right under the last response listed this morning. I then
logged-off and went to another of my favorites sites to see
what happened in the world while I slept.
As I sat there staring at my monitor, something just did
not seem right after reading all of your praises about the
thread that I posted yesterday. I sat in a mode that I can
describe as a flat-out frozen trance. The center of my brow
felt cold when I finally realized what it is that continues to
bother me despite all of your assurances that things are
really honkie-dorrie with me here at the forum, as far as
you are concerned. I just cannot in good conscience accept
that. I have decided that I cannot continue to be here for
this reason. And for this reason alone:
You see, when I joined this site I did so with a great and
tremendous sense of wishing and wanting to be of help to
someone, anyone who needed help. I actually tip-toed into
the site and registered and joined. You will not find any
useful information released under my personal profile that
you may use as a clue to know who I am or what stand for.
I think this criteria of the site is perfect. Each person reserves his/her right to keep personal info private, the way
it should be.
Now here is the reason that I mention as invoked to decide
to leave the form.
I laud the site`s criteria of personal security. So for this
very reason I do not know who Roxy is. And that is good.
What transpired in the course of my trying to be of help
to her, at least in terms of her worries, actually developed
into a disaster, not only in obviously amplifying her worries
but stoking to further her confusion with respect to her
husband`s situation in Mexico.
Please note if you stumbled into my thread and read it. I
kinda begged Roxy to understand and forgive my mistake
of commenting to her thread at the Soap Box when I
actually had no buisness or knowledge of what I wrote. I
even requested a response from her in the thread, and that
was after I sent her a personal message earlier in the day.
As of today, I have no message from her.
This clash of hurt feelings is not what I had in mind when I
came here. This thing is absolutely not about me. I do not
need praises and toots and horn or balloons for my words.
The only one that can soothe and make things right for
me to continue writing here is her. And by her I mean Roxy.
It even entered my mind, like a flicker of hope, that perhaps she is in Mexico looking out for her man and she
does not know what is going on with me here. Maybe that
is the reason that all is silent over at her end. But that does
not help either.
So I am now asking all you good folks out there, HELP!
If you communicate with Roxy, please advise her that I
need her assurance that all is well with her, and that I
would appreciate if she sent me a PM in which she stated
her take in the matter.
It will be hard for me, make no mistake, to leave this site.
I will not feel comfortable at all making comments to folks
who need some sort of comfort in their quest for justice here in this country. So if I cannot in good spirit make a
simple comment hoping to assist someone without fear of
a repeat, what is the sense of making the comment in the
first place? Yeah, sure, we all make mistakes. But if you
are the beneficiary of someone`s error, and you do not
clear the air with the one who might have aggrieved you
by such mistake, that person is clearly diluted and further
made to withdraw within himself. And that is the case with
me at this moment. I just cannot in good faith continue
here.
All because of this thing at the Soap Box.
Over and out.
Elmoticky