It's one of those days...

[JMRJ]

This year has been intolerably awful for me. I suffer from an extreme depression relapse since my husband got picked up by ICE when I was six months pregnant. He voluntarily departed to Mexico with my newborn daughter!! I had no other choice but to leave her over there because I am still on several childcare's waiting lists.. I am completely isolated. Not one friend, my family is only my 5 year old son from a previous relationship. I went back to work 6 weeks after I gave birth but I still couldn't catch up with my past due bills.I've been working cleaning private houses. Back breaking job but this is the only job I did for more than 10 years because I did not even graduate high school.Before I came home from work today I had to pull over for 20 minutes because my car overheated. One of the mechanical problems my car have that needs fixing but I could not take it to the shop. I could not even buy my son a new pair of sandals. He goes to school with his worn out slippers. I called USCIS today for our I-129F application because I still haven't received the NOA1 since mailing it on August 14th to CSC and when I checked our app. status online from the receipt # they gave me, it says "Application for Form I130 Petition for Immigrant Visa has been received and pending."?????? I asked for I-129F. I just broke down and was crying again...It's one of my unbearable moments. Sorry guys, I don't have anybody else to vent to.A lot of times, powerful forces such as thinking about my financial problems,missing my baby girl so much, missing my husband so much, isolation, are taking over me. I keep on reminding myself that I'm not the only one dealing with this situation but it is still very painful. :bluesad:

[DeBenny]

Wow,JMRJ! God bless you and provide you the strenght to over come. I wish that I could provideyou jennie in a bottle to be able to grant you your wishes of having your husband back home with you. Are you involved with any support groups or church? I would do that if I were you to be able to vent. I will keep you and your family in prayer. Keep your head up and your husband is a very lucky man!!!

[KellyKS]

Sorry to hear that things are not going well for you. It always seems like everything bad happens all at the same time. Almost seems like more then a person can bear. Just remember that you aren't given more than you can take, it certainly can seem like more then you can take at the time, but later when looking back on the situation you will see how strong you are and how much you have grown through these hard times. Just vent as needed or feel free to PM or e-mail me.

Kelly:)

[lexidoodle]

Is moving to Mexico a possible option?

[ratito921]

hang in there jmrj I know it's hard. It's ok to cry. Scream if you have to might make you feel better. Just don't give up. Keep the faith. You're in the right place. We've been through it and are going through it and you are never alone. Keep your head up and stay strong for yourself and for your children too. Don't worry about not graduating from high school, there are other ways to make it. Just hold on with all you've got and fight like hell for what you believe. Your family will be home before you know and you'll look back on this moment and be like "wow I can't believe it, I can't believe I was in that place"

When my husband left I cried, then I got really sad, then I got mad. It's kind of like the grieving process. He was gone for a long time but now that he's home I don't remember even a teeny tiny bit of that pain. It was all worth it.

Just remember we're here for you.

[JMRJ]

Thank you ALL Guys for your encouraging words. I really need these to motivate me in times of trial. I was gone all day today. I took my son to the Emergency Room because he was complaining about head aches and he was vomitting with no other symptoms. The Doctor did CT Scan and blood tests and there's nothing wrong. One of my many trips to E.R. for him because I have to make sure he's okay. He's born with a birth defect and there are possible risks that could occur.And when I sat down in my computer, wow! I'm pleased, I've got replies.THANKS.

DeBenny, I'm considering about Family Support Groups. But I need to overcome my social anxiety. Someday...For now, I like it that I found this site. There's so many people facing challenges in lives or been through with it and are very helpful.

[aprilstorm]

Stay strong. This immigration crap is not easy and we come out of it as a basket case but a strong basketcase. We are here for you anytime!!!!!!

[aprilstorm]

Where do you leave at?

[JMRJ]

Where do you leave at?


Thanks aprilstorm. I read some of your backgrounds and I admire your strenghts. I live in Hawaii.

[aprilstorm]

I've always wanted to go to Hawaii.....maybe one day!!!!

[JMRJ]

I've always wanted to go to Hawaii.....maybe one day!!!!
and maybe one day we can meet?:blush:

[ojos_de_alicia]

Dang girl.. if i ever go to hawaii.. i will def invite u for some starbucks! (they have it there right? lol)... i know it really helps to have friends during this process.. i dont know what i'de do w/o mine!..HUGS! u are very strong and u will get through this..

[JMRJ]

i will def invite u for some starbucks! (they have it there right? lol)...

...we went to starbucks on our first date with my husband..yes, we have starbucks for ten years now and they just built another one..but I'm so broke for awhile now I just make my coffee at home...