AGJB
04-11-2008, 08:05 PM
Hello my I2US friends,
I have had a migraine for the last 5 days. I've hardly ever had headaches - now I've had them so bad that I can't even see - I have to try really hard to focus, but everything remains a painful blurr.
At work, I maintain nolmacy and am very pleasant, but once I'm out I turn into my currently "real ugly self." I am very angry - angry at this country, angry at my husband (though I don't express this to him) and I am increasingly snappy, aggresive, very little patience - just plain volatile.
This weekend I snapped at the Immigration Officer at the Tijuana border. She gave me s**t b/c I presented a copy of my birth certificate and my son's orginal BC - she claimed my BC was a counterfit - she went on to say if you photocopied a $10 bill and attempted to pay with the photocopy at a store - they can prosecute me for attempting to pay with a counterfit. I replied "I've been coming through this border for over 3 years and not once has the copy of my bc ever been a problem." Her reply is well if you don't want the hassle then don't cross the border. Then I replied "Well now you're just being rude - I'm not trying to steal or buy anything I'm trying to go home and get to work." I pulled out an original from my trunk - slammed it shut and handed it to her. She looked at it, said thank you and gave it back to me. I said nothing and drove off.
I don't like the new me and have finally decided that I need to seek therapy and anger management. Aside from the immigration brick wall we've hit - everything else in life is good - Beautiful son, great job, good home...
I love my husband, but just can't see a future together anymore and I feel terrible about that.
My anger is just eating me up alive. :cry:
I have had a migraine for the last 5 days. I've hardly ever had headaches - now I've had them so bad that I can't even see - I have to try really hard to focus, but everything remains a painful blurr.
At work, I maintain nolmacy and am very pleasant, but once I'm out I turn into my currently "real ugly self." I am very angry - angry at this country, angry at my husband (though I don't express this to him) and I am increasingly snappy, aggresive, very little patience - just plain volatile.
This weekend I snapped at the Immigration Officer at the Tijuana border. She gave me s**t b/c I presented a copy of my birth certificate and my son's orginal BC - she claimed my BC was a counterfit - she went on to say if you photocopied a $10 bill and attempted to pay with the photocopy at a store - they can prosecute me for attempting to pay with a counterfit. I replied "I've been coming through this border for over 3 years and not once has the copy of my bc ever been a problem." Her reply is well if you don't want the hassle then don't cross the border. Then I replied "Well now you're just being rude - I'm not trying to steal or buy anything I'm trying to go home and get to work." I pulled out an original from my trunk - slammed it shut and handed it to her. She looked at it, said thank you and gave it back to me. I said nothing and drove off.
I don't like the new me and have finally decided that I need to seek therapy and anger management. Aside from the immigration brick wall we've hit - everything else in life is good - Beautiful son, great job, good home...
I love my husband, but just can't see a future together anymore and I feel terrible about that.
My anger is just eating me up alive. :cry: